So I'm tired of bitching and moaning to those I love and a friend sent me her blog... So I decided... thats a good venue... lets see how well this goes!
I am 30 almost 31 and I've lived harder than someone three times my age... and lately it just seems to get harder. But no one ever said life was easy. I was once told I could write a book about my life, but someone beat me to that... Have you ever read or saw the movie- Riding in Cars with Boys... Boy did that feel like I was watching Drew Barrymore play me on tv. I mean granted there are few things different... She had a boy and I have a girl but basically everything else was the same.
So where do I begin this rant??? Do I tell you how disappointed I am in my daughter or how tired I am of being the one everyone runs to for help... Who is gonna help me???
Why is it always about you? Have you realized that I have issues too, I have problems; oh wait thats right you can't see past yourself...
Before this becomes one of Eminem's songs let me get off of you and back on to me!!! The past few months have been insane... Amanda started High School and I thought that it would be a good thing, easy because all of her other transitions went great... Who was I kidding? She made new friends quick some good but most bad... It started with her choice of male friends... i.e. the "boyfriend"... ugh.... i get sick just thinking about him... Well lets just say, I've had to force him out of our lives... I know he will always be in the back of her mind and I know I will always be hated for this but, a mother must do things to protect her child...
So hear we are 6 months into High School and shes been suspended and invited then unvited to represent her school at an Academic Bowl for deaf students... So now I ask you, why am I supposed to be proud of her???
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